this iis one of those rare times when you are completely gone, it is like you never existed. outside i hear the clap of shoes on the pavement below; i hear car engines and can picture the grey skys. the world spins, people feel, predator catches prey. life carries on as if nothing has ever happened. and all i can think is ‘i don’t even have a recording of your voice’ why am i still here and you are not? i don’t understand anything anymore.
